Yesterday was a very good day for me! I had prayed a few days ago and asked God to send me what I needed, worded just that way. Immediately I thought of First Thessalonians. Now I have problems sometimes discerning whether the answers I get are in fact from God or if it's just my weird brain. But I went and opened my Bible to Thessalonians and God showed me this,


" That ye would walk worthy of God, who hath called you unto his kingdom and glory. For this cause also thank we God without ceasing because when ye received the work of God which ye heard of us, ye received it not as the word of men, but as it is in truth, the word of God, which effectually worketh also in you that believe."

As I read this I felt so awful knowing that I had not walked worthy of God. My pastor spoke a sermon once about David and how he had displeased God, and the sorrow that he felt knowing he made the Lord unhappy. I understand these words now. At the same time I was feeling awful I also felt an overwhelming joy at understanding God's never ending patience and love and forgiveness.

This past Sunday P. Jason said that just because you are saved doesn't mean that Satan will leave you alone. This is soo true!! The temptation to do so many things is as ever present as it always has been and because you God's child the devil will try his hardest because nothing makes him happier than to steal away one of God's children.

Calling All Strays

Ok, this post is particularly hard for me because I've had some recent realizations about my life and actions. Both of which were not in accordance to God's Word. The first way I had strayed from God's Word is that I ignored my husband and let our marriage slip to a state where it needed dire attention, (which thankfully we are repairing). Secondly I placed my own personal ambitions ahead of my family, that is not to say that I did not care for my family just that I worked and constantly had work on my mind. Thirdly I had missed going to church, and therefore missed the nourishment that comes from fellowship with other Christians. The Word says that where two or more are gathered there I am (I being God). I promised the Lord that I would serve him and raise my children to love and serve Him, and I have slacked off on that promise. It is particularly painful when you love the Lord and you know that you have not been true to promises made to Him. I know I am not perfect and that God knows this as well. I am not perfect but I can still strive to please God and be a blessing to my husband and my family. I can bless my home by keeping it clean. I can bless my children by teaching them about God and His Word. I can bless my husband by respecting him and being obedient, (note here that I very much want to add "within reason" but that would not be in accordance with the Bible"). I will be a loving person and strive to bless others with the peace that God has given me. I will do my very best to hold on to that peace on hectic days when it seems like nothing has gotten done. I can devote time to prayer and try to openly receive God's answers to my prayers, even if they may not be the ones I had expected.