Calling All Strays

Ok, this post is particularly hard for me because I've had some recent realizations about my life and actions. Both of which were not in accordance to God's Word. The first way I had strayed from God's Word is that I ignored my husband and let our marriage slip to a state where it needed dire attention, (which thankfully we are repairing). Secondly I placed my own personal ambitions ahead of my family, that is not to say that I did not care for my family just that I worked and constantly had work on my mind. Thirdly I had missed going to church, and therefore missed the nourishment that comes from fellowship with other Christians. The Word says that where two or more are gathered there I am (I being God). I promised the Lord that I would serve him and raise my children to love and serve Him, and I have slacked off on that promise. It is particularly painful when you love the Lord and you know that you have not been true to promises made to Him. I know I am not perfect and that God knows this as well. I am not perfect but I can still strive to please God and be a blessing to my husband and my family. I can bless my home by keeping it clean. I can bless my children by teaching them about God and His Word. I can bless my husband by respecting him and being obedient, (note here that I very much want to add "within reason" but that would not be in accordance with the Bible"). I will be a loving person and strive to bless others with the peace that God has given me. I will do my very best to hold on to that peace on hectic days when it seems like nothing has gotten done. I can devote time to prayer and try to openly receive God's answers to my prayers, even if they may not be the ones I had expected.

Lost and Found

Wow, where do I start this post?


Over the past few weeks I have noticed something that is disturbing. I have become so caught up in being mom and wife that I have almost completely forgotten who I am as a person. If someone asks me something that's not related to Lance or our kids I practically draw a blank. Example - This past Christmas my mother in law (who I am so blessed to have as family) asked me what I wanted for Christmas. Immediately I started telling her that our oldest needed a new pair of shoes, clothes for Sophia (our youngest), just general stuff for the kids. She stopped me and asked what I wanted for Christmas, UM? It took me two days to come up with a list, a very small list. If it keeps going like this I won't have any idea who I am separate from my husband and kids, to be honest that completely terrifies me. I'll wake up one morning and be like a weird soccer mom robot!!!!

So, in effort to get me back I have started to compile a list, Things I like, don't like, values, ect...

Top 10 Things That I Like

1 - COFFEE - Hey I'm mom to a two year old and a four month old, honestly I need like an I.V or something!

2 - Summer rain storms - Not like the really big ones with winds strong enough to knock your trees down, but the ones that last just long enough so that when they are over the air smells of country and rain and all things alive.

3 - Historical Romance Novels - I'm a sucker for this kind of thing, there's a part of me that just wants to be swept away.

4 - Long hot showers - the kind that steam up the whole bathroom!!!

5 - Legos - Ok, so maybe it's not the "adult" thing, but really what's not awesome about Legos?

6 - Wall Murals - I'm in the process of renovating the inside of my house and I fully intend it to be really cool!!!

7 - Animals - Not just the normal cats and dogs, I love all animals (ok, maybe not spiders)

8 - Did I mention Coffee? Ok, well then 8 has to be Cooking, I love to be able to make something and then watch the faces of the people eating whatever I've concocted.

9 - The Sea - she has so many moods

10 - Letters - I mean the "old fashioned" handwritten, snail mail type.

Where do I even start this post. Lets begin by saying that I've not been to church the last two weeks. Not because we woke up late, not because the car wouldn't start. Just because. How terrible is that? Ok, not so terrible tons of people opt for not going to church.

I did something over the past week that I kind of feel guilty about. Is cyber sex cheating? Like if you do it once (and just once). Hubby is gone almost all the time with his job. I can't believe I'm trying to justify this! I tell you it's been a really weird week.

I've got my post tape test tomorrow and then after that I should be able to take my GED test. After that it's on to the college admissions office for enrollment in the fall semester.

Onward Ho!!

The Week of Frustration goes on. Today I had to go to work, so I woke up at five thirty thinking that it was six thirty. I went out to crank up my car and the darn thing would not acquiesce to my simple request for it to start!!! The result of its defiance resulted in my not getting to work until almost eleven! Thankfully though, my husband was able to finally figure out what was killing my battery. Apparently there was a loose wire somewhere under that mysterious hood and it was keeping my fuel pump on. So I'm hoping that I won't have this problem again.

School wise, we started working on our essays for the GED this week. I've got a pretty good rough draft so far but it still needs some tweaking here and there to make it perfect. At seventy dollars per test attempt I can't afford not to pay attention. Also on the fourteenth of next month our class is going to be going to check out Trident Technical College's campus. I'm going to talk to the administration people if I can and see about enrolling for the fall semester. I've decided to take the courses required to be a Lab Technician. Aside from the fact that they make pretty good money, I'll always have a job so long as people keep getting sick. Plus the microscopes and tests they get to run are pretty cool!!

It has been a long day so I'm going to hop in the shower and try to get a good nights sleep.

Karma

Well, I know it's been a while since I've contributed to this blog. My computer has decided to misbehave. My dh took it to a friend of ours who works his technical magic with our circuit boards and between him and my husband ( mostly my husband) they managed to break what was already broken. So I am writing off of hubby's laptop.

But that is so not the topic of todays entry!

Do you believe in karma? That what you do will come back to you, full circle so to speak? Well I must have done something awful for the day I've had today. I went to work this morning at six am. I had to wait till eight to call our doctor because my oldest daughter had been complaining that it hurt when she went pee. So I called and the only time that they were able to get us in was nine forty five. Ok, no problem, I would go back after the appointment was finished. I leave work, go to get Mak from the house, and take her to the doctors office. Everything got worked out and was fine. We leave the office and walk to our car, I get both her and me in without a hitch. I go to crank my car up and the stupid thing won't crank!! I've had this problem for a while now. In fact it got so bad at one point that my husband mounted a battery charger under my hood and now I have the plug sticking out of my grill. Every night when I get home all I have to do is plug it up to the extention cord and normally everything is fine. But she wouldn't crank.

My husband comes and jumps the car off. I think, "Ok, things will be fine from here on out". Boy was I wrong! I get out of the parking lot. Over the bridge and get a little way out of town and my drivers side rear tire blows out!! Take into account that the tire is the same tire that I replaced not even a month ago (a spare). So my husband comes (again) to fix it. He had to call his dad to bring him a better jack because he couldn't get the car high enough to change the tire. All of this happened before twelve today. And in the pouring rain no less! I also had class tonight. And tomorrow night. It can only go up from here lol. I'm exhausted so I'm for bed.

It just never ends!

Well, I had to take Sophie back to the doctor today! She had awful diarrhea and a rash that spread all over her body and honestly freaked me out. I got to the doctor and found out that she had a sore throat and that a virus was causing all the other stuff. I tell you this is not a good week.

I think I've got bad karma or something. Since last month we have all come down with something or another, I've had to leave work several times because one of the kids got sick and today I picked up my sweet tea from Wendy's and the darn lid came right off soaking me in sweet tea (not fun). The weather lately has something to do with the fact that I feel completely unmotivated and downright grumpy. I am not a cold weather person and if I had my way I would live right on the equator! Our weather here in South Carolina has just been wonky, this past week has been freezing and they even called for snow and next week it's supposed to be in the seventies!!!!! Tell me how can a body get used to that kind of weather?

On the up side. I went last Tuesday to register for my GED (hooray) and I've started my classes for it. Monday and Tuesday evenings for the next three to five weeks. I've been saying and saying that I was going to go do that and this year I finally did it. After I get my GED I'm going to see about getting qualified to be a medical assistant. Hopefully everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

Really Long Week

It has been a rough couple of weeks! Last week I came down with this awful stomach virus. I swear, I just wanted to roll over and die! It was terrible. The nausea and vomiting, when I got over it, Makayla got it, then Lance, as soon as I realized how very contagious it was I immediately sent my three month old daughter, Sophie, to my mother in laws house. That's all I needed was a sick three month old I thought.

Then this week rolled around. Tuesday I ended up having to take Mak to the doctor, her nose had been running like Niagara Falls, they checked her out, and thankfully there was nothing in her lungs, so they just told me to give her benydrille to clear up her sinuses. Wednesday I was sick again, I was nauseous for some reason, still haven't figured that out, but I just chalked it up to after effects of the stomach thing. Friday is where it all goes to hell. I get up that morning to go to work, get every one ready to go. Everything seems fine. At about nine thirty that morning my mother calls me at work and tells me that Sophie (the baby) has a fever of 104!!! So I have to leave work and call the doctor. They tell me that they don't know whats causing it but because it was so high that they wanted to have a blood panel done to try and figure out what was going on. We get over to trident emergency room and they had to stick her three times just to get her to bleed enough to fill two little vials! I met my mother at huddle house while I waited for the pharmacy to fill a script and for the test results from Sophies blood work. The doctor finally calls me right when I'm heading home and tells me that she wants me to go down to Trident Main down on hwy 78. So I turn around and get to going that way when she calls me back and tells me that she would rather me go all the way down to MUSC pediatrics department. So onward I go. Sophie is still running the fever even after the baby tylenol and I'm starting to get really worried. It takes me about an hour and a half to get down to downtown Charleston, then it took me two hours just to find the stupid building!!! I tell you there is a reason I don't live in Charleston. She's still running the fever when I get her in the door. They call us back to her roomand take her temp 103.8. They give her some pedialyte and then we are there for two hours just waiting on the doctor to come look at her. They did one test on her urine ( they had to cath her - not fun) to rule out a UTI, nothing else, they didn't draw the first drop of blood, which was the whole reason that we were down there was to get blood cultures done because the original blood panel showed her white count was like way high. I was so upset that they weren't doing what they were supposed to. They didn't even have the test results from the Trident blood work!!!!!!!!!!!!! We got home around 11 30 pm. I woke up at five the next morning to go to work. I'm so glad this week is over.