I am so frustrated right now!! I have been looking for a job for about two months now. Everything I come across requires either a degree or a certification. I have neither. I type well, I know how to use a computer and I have five years of customer service experience. I don't know why it is taking this long!!
I know millions of other Americans are in this same position. I lost my job back in April because I had to have emergency surgery and ended up in the hospital for three days and out for the next week. My boss didn't like that too much. Anywho, I got my GED in August and have been looking for a job ever since. The only downside to living in the country is that your so far away from everything, of course that's one of the upsides too. It is a great place to raise your kids, it's quiet, I don't have to worry about someone breaking into our home when my husband is at the fire department. I can let my girls play outside without fear of them getting run over (we live away from the highway). But because of all of this, finding a job that pays enough to make the commute worth it is very difficult.
On a different note. My house has morphed into a hospital these past few weeks. I have had to take the girls to the doctors twice this month. This last time the verdict was: two ear infections (both girls), two sinus infections (both girls) and my youngest Sophie had tonsillitis!!! Thankfully they are doing much better now. Sophie has to go back to the doctor on the fifth, he wanted to make sure her tonsils came back down to their normal size. I just want everyone to get better.
The Octoberfest is coming up in a week or so. I am very excited. I love our festivals and this year the St Stephen Volunteer Fire Department is running the Octoberfest!! I just know it's going to be great! These are wonderfully dedicated people, who love this town and what they do. I am really excited to see what band they have gotten this year, normally the music is really good, so I'm sure they won't dissappoint!!
My eldest daughter Makayla has started headstart. My mom had a fit because she didn't want her granddaughter to go to "that place". Turns out she loves that place. Her teachers are wonderful, she has a great time and she learns. What more can I ask for in a preschool?
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
A Different Kind of Animal All Together..
Ok, let us talk for a minute about deer and rabbits. (I know this is a bit off subject but go with me here.) This spring I decided to plant a garden. I was looking forward to juicy tomatoes, crisp greens, and fresh beans and peppers among other things.
Yesterday, however, I went out to check on my beloved garden and found that my entire row of black eyed peas had been eaten!!!! I could see where the plants had been, they all looked like little stubs sticking out of the ground! Needless to say I was very upset. Here I had tilled, and weeded and tended this garden and what do I get in return? I called my grandmother and everyone else I knew and got numerous responses as to how to keep rabbits and deer OUT of my garden.
- Pee around your garden (believe it or not this was one of the top answers I got!! Apparently there's something about the scent.)
- Tie grocery bags around your garden - the noise when the breeze blows them scares away all pests.
- Sprinkle human hair (like from the barber shop) around the outside of your garden.
- Mix one tablespoon Tabasco with one gallon of water and pour around the outside of your garden.
Does anyone have any more ideas on how to keep rabbits and deer away from the garden?
Yesterday, however, I went out to check on my beloved garden and found that my entire row of black eyed peas had been eaten!!!! I could see where the plants had been, they all looked like little stubs sticking out of the ground! Needless to say I was very upset. Here I had tilled, and weeded and tended this garden and what do I get in return? I called my grandmother and everyone else I knew and got numerous responses as to how to keep rabbits and deer OUT of my garden.
- Pee around your garden (believe it or not this was one of the top answers I got!! Apparently there's something about the scent.)
- Tie grocery bags around your garden - the noise when the breeze blows them scares away all pests.
- Sprinkle human hair (like from the barber shop) around the outside of your garden.
- Mix one tablespoon Tabasco with one gallon of water and pour around the outside of your garden.
Does anyone have any more ideas on how to keep rabbits and deer away from the garden?
Monday, May 11, 2009
Recovery
Well, today was ok. My stomach looks like someone kicked the crap out of it, bruises and such. But all in all the pain isn't that bad. After all it wasn't like I lost anything truly valuable lol. My dad made my husband take me and the girls over to my mother's house today so that they could help with the kids since I couldn't lift them or anything. But I'm staying home tomorrow so I'll see what I can get done and if Lance fusses when he gets home because I was cleaning the house then there's nothing that he can do about it because it will already be done.
I've quit my part time job in favor of finishing my GED and taking care of the girls. Really when I sat back and looked at it I realized that unless I can find a job that will pay enough to put both of the girls in daycare then it's really not worth it right now. Mak just turned three and Soph is only six months. Past sitters have been unreliable with the exception of one, but I am hesitant about that because of several different things. So I either find a job that pays well, or I wait until both of my children are in kindergarten......yeah, that's a good long while.
A bit of good news, the garden is growing well, I've only gotten to take a quick look since we've been home but tomorrow I'm going to go out there and give it a good once over. It looks like it hasn't been weeded and I've not been able to water it for the last three days because I wasn't here. Mak and I planted tomatoes (which I have to replant and stake), bell peppers, eggplant, squash, lima beans, blackeyed peas and string beans. So I'm really hoping that everything grows well and that we will have a good turn out from the garden. This is the first year I've ever done anything like this and I'm really excited. Mak was mostly just happy to be able to play in the dirt!!
I've quit my part time job in favor of finishing my GED and taking care of the girls. Really when I sat back and looked at it I realized that unless I can find a job that will pay enough to put both of the girls in daycare then it's really not worth it right now. Mak just turned three and Soph is only six months. Past sitters have been unreliable with the exception of one, but I am hesitant about that because of several different things. So I either find a job that pays well, or I wait until both of my children are in kindergarten......yeah, that's a good long while.
A bit of good news, the garden is growing well, I've only gotten to take a quick look since we've been home but tomorrow I'm going to go out there and give it a good once over. It looks like it hasn't been weeded and I've not been able to water it for the last three days because I wasn't here. Mak and I planted tomatoes (which I have to replant and stake), bell peppers, eggplant, squash, lima beans, blackeyed peas and string beans. So I'm really hoping that everything grows well and that we will have a good turn out from the garden. This is the first year I've ever done anything like this and I'm really excited. Mak was mostly just happy to be able to play in the dirt!!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, where do I start? The beginning is always good. LOL, ok really, not that funny.
This week has been really hectic. I work part time at our local grocery store, in the meat department. I also have two children, one three and one six months. My husband and I do not make enough money to put them in daycare so that I can work full time, so my mother has kept them whilst I worked after having my youngest, Sophia. Well, on Friday she called me right as I was about to go back to work from lunch telling me that I had to come get the girls. She couldn't stop Sophie from screaming (teething) and Makayla wasn't listening to her! Take note here that I was late to work Friday morning because my alarm clock did not go off that morning (thankyou stupid thunderstorm) so my boss wasn't exactly happy with me to begin with. I had to call him and tell him that I had to leave work for the rest of the day to go and get my children. So I go and do that and get everyone home and settled. Later that afternoon I start getting stomach pain. I thought I had a run of the mill stomach virus and thought nothing of it until later when it got so bad that I couldn't even stand up. The nausea itself was terrible!!! My darling husband had to call 911, wake our girls and follow the ambulance to the emergency room. After finally getting checked out by the doctor they ruled all viral causes out and ordered a cat scan of my abdomen. They then found that it was my appendix and I was rushed down to Roper hospital for a Laparscopic Appendectomy (forgive me if I spelled that wrong) that was 1 am Saturday morning I think ( I was a bit out of it as I think that they gave me something for the pain after they found out that it was my appendix). I was rushed down there and they got me ready for surgery I don't remember much but I do remember that they strapped my arms and legs down to the table before surgery ( did not like that part one bit) then they put the little anesthetic face mask thingee on me and it felt like it stayed on there for a while and it felt like it wasn't working. I started to freak out thinking that they were going to start the surgery on me before I was out. Like I said I don't remember much before they brought me round after the surgery.
After I woke up my vision was really blurry but they said that it was because of the gel stuff that they put on my eyes pre op, my throat was really sore but that was because of the tube that they put down my throat (not sure what that part was for) and I was really sore from my ribcage up especially on my right side. Oh, and sometime before I was really awake my iv burst and soaked my left arm and hospital gown with iv fluid and blood (really not cool). I'm home now and recovering thankfully. Everything is still really sore and I'm kindof scared to take a shower because all they put on my insicions (which there are three) is this clear derma bond stuff) and I'm scared it's going to dissolve or something. I'm going to call the dr in the morning.
I'm going to be at my mother's house for the next day or so until I can start lifting again. The doctor said that I can't really lift anything over three pounds for the next two weeks so it's going to be interesting to see how my mother and I get on. We love eachother better from our own houses.
Oh, I got a new puppy!!! I almost forgot about him. He is sooo wonderful. He's a daschund chiuahha mix and black and tan. So completely cute and loyal. He has stayed with me all day since we got home, and he will be going with me and the girls when we get to my mothers. Oh, his name is Maximillon Wadford. The newest addition to our family.
This week has been really hectic. I work part time at our local grocery store, in the meat department. I also have two children, one three and one six months. My husband and I do not make enough money to put them in daycare so that I can work full time, so my mother has kept them whilst I worked after having my youngest, Sophia. Well, on Friday she called me right as I was about to go back to work from lunch telling me that I had to come get the girls. She couldn't stop Sophie from screaming (teething) and Makayla wasn't listening to her! Take note here that I was late to work Friday morning because my alarm clock did not go off that morning (thankyou stupid thunderstorm) so my boss wasn't exactly happy with me to begin with. I had to call him and tell him that I had to leave work for the rest of the day to go and get my children. So I go and do that and get everyone home and settled. Later that afternoon I start getting stomach pain. I thought I had a run of the mill stomach virus and thought nothing of it until later when it got so bad that I couldn't even stand up. The nausea itself was terrible!!! My darling husband had to call 911, wake our girls and follow the ambulance to the emergency room. After finally getting checked out by the doctor they ruled all viral causes out and ordered a cat scan of my abdomen. They then found that it was my appendix and I was rushed down to Roper hospital for a Laparscopic Appendectomy (forgive me if I spelled that wrong) that was 1 am Saturday morning I think ( I was a bit out of it as I think that they gave me something for the pain after they found out that it was my appendix). I was rushed down there and they got me ready for surgery I don't remember much but I do remember that they strapped my arms and legs down to the table before surgery ( did not like that part one bit) then they put the little anesthetic face mask thingee on me and it felt like it stayed on there for a while and it felt like it wasn't working. I started to freak out thinking that they were going to start the surgery on me before I was out. Like I said I don't remember much before they brought me round after the surgery.
After I woke up my vision was really blurry but they said that it was because of the gel stuff that they put on my eyes pre op, my throat was really sore but that was because of the tube that they put down my throat (not sure what that part was for) and I was really sore from my ribcage up especially on my right side. Oh, and sometime before I was really awake my iv burst and soaked my left arm and hospital gown with iv fluid and blood (really not cool). I'm home now and recovering thankfully. Everything is still really sore and I'm kindof scared to take a shower because all they put on my insicions (which there are three) is this clear derma bond stuff) and I'm scared it's going to dissolve or something. I'm going to call the dr in the morning.
I'm going to be at my mother's house for the next day or so until I can start lifting again. The doctor said that I can't really lift anything over three pounds for the next two weeks so it's going to be interesting to see how my mother and I get on. We love eachother better from our own houses.
Oh, I got a new puppy!!! I almost forgot about him. He is sooo wonderful. He's a daschund chiuahha mix and black and tan. So completely cute and loyal. He has stayed with me all day since we got home, and he will be going with me and the girls when we get to my mothers. Oh, his name is Maximillon Wadford. The newest addition to our family.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Yesterday was a very good day for me! I had prayed a few days ago and asked God to send me what I needed, worded just that way. Immediately I thought of First Thessalonians. Now I have problems sometimes discerning whether the answers I get are in fact from God or if it's just my weird brain. But I went and opened my Bible to Thessalonians and God showed me this,
" That ye would walk worthy of God, who hath called you unto his kingdom and glory. For this cause also thank we God without ceasing because when ye received the work of God which ye heard of us, ye received it not as the word of men, but as it is in truth, the word of God, which effectually worketh also in you that believe."
As I read this I felt so awful knowing that I had not walked worthy of God. My pastor spoke a sermon once about David and how he had displeased God, and the sorrow that he felt knowing he made the Lord unhappy. I understand these words now. At the same time I was feeling awful I also felt an overwhelming joy at understanding God's never ending patience and love and forgiveness.
This past Sunday P. Jason said that just because you are saved doesn't mean that Satan will leave you alone. This is soo true!! The temptation to do so many things is as ever present as it always has been and because you God's child the devil will try his hardest because nothing makes him happier than to steal away one of God's children.
" That ye would walk worthy of God, who hath called you unto his kingdom and glory. For this cause also thank we God without ceasing because when ye received the work of God which ye heard of us, ye received it not as the word of men, but as it is in truth, the word of God, which effectually worketh also in you that believe."
As I read this I felt so awful knowing that I had not walked worthy of God. My pastor spoke a sermon once about David and how he had displeased God, and the sorrow that he felt knowing he made the Lord unhappy. I understand these words now. At the same time I was feeling awful I also felt an overwhelming joy at understanding God's never ending patience and love and forgiveness.
This past Sunday P. Jason said that just because you are saved doesn't mean that Satan will leave you alone. This is soo true!! The temptation to do so many things is as ever present as it always has been and because you God's child the devil will try his hardest because nothing makes him happier than to steal away one of God's children.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Calling All Strays
Ok, this post is particularly hard for me because I've had some recent realizations about my life and actions. Both of which were not in accordance to God's Word. The first way I had strayed from God's Word is that I ignored my husband and let our marriage slip to a state where it needed dire attention, (which thankfully we are repairing). Secondly I placed my own personal ambitions ahead of my family, that is not to say that I did not care for my family just that I worked and constantly had work on my mind. Thirdly I had missed going to church, and therefore missed the nourishment that comes from fellowship with other Christians. The Word says that where two or more are gathered there I am (I being God). I promised the Lord that I would serve him and raise my children to love and serve Him, and I have slacked off on that promise. It is particularly painful when you love the Lord and you know that you have not been true to promises made to Him. I know I am not perfect and that God knows this as well. I am not perfect but I can still strive to please God and be a blessing to my husband and my family. I can bless my home by keeping it clean. I can bless my children by teaching them about God and His Word. I can bless my husband by respecting him and being obedient, (note here that I very much want to add "within reason" but that would not be in accordance with the Bible"). I will be a loving person and strive to bless others with the peace that God has given me. I will do my very best to hold on to that peace on hectic days when it seems like nothing has gotten done. I can devote time to prayer and try to openly receive God's answers to my prayers, even if they may not be the ones I had expected.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Lost and Found
Wow, where do I start this post?
Over the past few weeks I have noticed something that is disturbing. I have become so caught up in being mom and wife that I have almost completely forgotten who I am as a person. If someone asks me something that's not related to Lance or our kids I practically draw a blank. Example - This past Christmas my mother in law (who I am so blessed to have as family) asked me what I wanted for Christmas. Immediately I started telling her that our oldest needed a new pair of shoes, clothes for Sophia (our youngest), just general stuff for the kids. She stopped me and asked what I wanted for Christmas, UM? It took me two days to come up with a list, a very small list. If it keeps going like this I won't have any idea who I am separate from my husband and kids, to be honest that completely terrifies me. I'll wake up one morning and be like a weird soccer mom robot!!!!
So, in effort to get me back I have started to compile a list, Things I like, don't like, values, ect...
Over the past few weeks I have noticed something that is disturbing. I have become so caught up in being mom and wife that I have almost completely forgotten who I am as a person. If someone asks me something that's not related to Lance or our kids I practically draw a blank. Example - This past Christmas my mother in law (who I am so blessed to have as family) asked me what I wanted for Christmas. Immediately I started telling her that our oldest needed a new pair of shoes, clothes for Sophia (our youngest), just general stuff for the kids. She stopped me and asked what I wanted for Christmas, UM? It took me two days to come up with a list, a very small list. If it keeps going like this I won't have any idea who I am separate from my husband and kids, to be honest that completely terrifies me. I'll wake up one morning and be like a weird soccer mom robot!!!!
So, in effort to get me back I have started to compile a list, Things I like, don't like, values, ect...
Top 10 Things That I Like
1 - COFFEE - Hey I'm mom to a two year old and a four month old, honestly I need like an I.V or something!
2 - Summer rain storms - Not like the really big ones with winds strong enough to knock your trees down, but the ones that last just long enough so that when they are over the air smells of country and rain and all things alive.
3 - Historical Romance Novels - I'm a sucker for this kind of thing, there's a part of me that just wants to be swept away.
4 - Long hot showers - the kind that steam up the whole bathroom!!!
5 - Legos - Ok, so maybe it's not the "adult" thing, but really what's not awesome about Legos?
6 - Wall Murals - I'm in the process of renovating the inside of my house and I fully intend it to be really cool!!!
7 - Animals - Not just the normal cats and dogs, I love all animals (ok, maybe not spiders)
8 - Did I mention Coffee? Ok, well then 8 has to be Cooking, I love to be able to make something and then watch the faces of the people eating whatever I've concocted.
9 - The Sea - she has so many moods
10 - Letters - I mean the "old fashioned" handwritten, snail mail type.
1 - COFFEE - Hey I'm mom to a two year old and a four month old, honestly I need like an I.V or something!
2 - Summer rain storms - Not like the really big ones with winds strong enough to knock your trees down, but the ones that last just long enough so that when they are over the air smells of country and rain and all things alive.
3 - Historical Romance Novels - I'm a sucker for this kind of thing, there's a part of me that just wants to be swept away.
4 - Long hot showers - the kind that steam up the whole bathroom!!!
5 - Legos - Ok, so maybe it's not the "adult" thing, but really what's not awesome about Legos?
6 - Wall Murals - I'm in the process of renovating the inside of my house and I fully intend it to be really cool!!!
7 - Animals - Not just the normal cats and dogs, I love all animals (ok, maybe not spiders)
8 - Did I mention Coffee? Ok, well then 8 has to be Cooking, I love to be able to make something and then watch the faces of the people eating whatever I've concocted.
9 - The Sea - she has so many moods
10 - Letters - I mean the "old fashioned" handwritten, snail mail type.
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